Feeling Better

I’m feeling better today after a talk with M last night… he told me to not think of my issues as my issues, but to think of us as a team. It made me feel good. He says we’ll deal with it all. We’ll figure it out. Today I have a little bit of emotion hangover… but I’m feeling more positive. We went and played some tennis and now we’re going to relax a little. We might hike later… or go play mini golf.

I’m going to do some reading probably so that I can get my inspiration back and my creative juices flowing. I have all these great ideas… the problem is I tend to just list them all out in my big idea collection and admire it. Never do anything with it. Of course… some things require money, like the poetry book. Not much, but it’s more than I should spend right now considering I’m running out of money pretty fast. But I can focus on the things that don’t require money, like the editing, the art… business plans for my companies, writing and writing, drawing, journaling… sewing. There’s a lot I can be doing.

I have to remind myself that what’s most important is that I’m doing these things for me, not worrying about whether or not they will ever be read or seen or appreciated. I write and draw and create because it makes me happy. It’s my therapy… and I treasure it all. I’m still working on doing a personal site, as a designer though, I find it hard to brand yourself. So it’s in progress. Plus, my kitty shut the power strip off on my machine and my backup hard drive won’t fire up. I have a lot of sample files on there that I don’t have anywhere else… so once I’ve got money coming in, I’ll have to take it in to be looked at.

Tomorrow is a day I’m pretty excited about. I bought tickets months ago to see Elizabeth Gilbert speak live tomorrow afternoon. I’m so stoked. She talks about inspiration and actually getting out into the world and living as experience instead of classrooms. So I’m hoping this pumps me up some more as well!